Prompt: Describe your first kiss
Lux’s age: 23
TW: Panic attack, slight depressive spiral
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“Oh, god, what did I do? Why did I do it? Why did I say that to her? Why? I know how she feels about that kind of stuff. At least, I have an idea,” Lux says frantically, pacing back and forth in their room, Camilla sitting on the edge of their bed worried as they start to spiral.
“Lux, she doesn’t-” Camilla tries to correct them, to stop their thoughts from going any further but gets cut off.
“Why did I say that? What was I thinking? How could I do that to her? Did you see the look on her face?” Lux faces Camilla a little, their eyes going over her but not really seeing her. “She was so awkward after that and immediately changed the subject. I definitely crossed a line and upset her. She could hardly even look at me.”
“Aurora isn’t upset-”
“Oh god, I’m the worst! She must hate me now. Why wouldn’t she? I made her so uncomfortable.”
“You didn’t-”
“She will probably never want to see me again. When we parted she was pretending to be fine but she was still tense and kept looking at me weird,” Lux says, voice cracking as tears start to bead at the corner of their eyes.
Camilla stands.
“She was probably really uncomfortable and didn’t know how to react.”
“Lux.” Camilla’s voice is firm as she grabs Lux’s hands. They jump a little but continue, their gaze finally focusing on Camilla.
“She’s never going to speak to me again, will she? She’s going to hate me, right?”
“Lux.”
“She probably already does.”
“Lux!”
“She has probably hated more for a while now and just hasn’t said anything to be nice and-”
Lux gets cut off by Camilla bending down to press her lips against his, kissing him. Lux immediately freezes, eyes widening and face going red. Camilla pulls away a second after making contact. She looks at Lux and takes in their expression, her own cheeks darkened by her blush.
“Good, you finally stopped,” Camilla said, her voice just slightly below normal talking volume. “Sorry for, you know… kissing you like that, but I couldn’t get you to stop…”
Camilla waits for Lux to respond but one never comes. Lux just stares at her, their face bright red, eyes wide, and a sparkle in their teardrop eyes. Camilla’s face heats up more. She drops her gaze to her hands and, seeing that they are still holding Lux’s, quickly drops them and takes a step back.
“Sorry. That was unnecessary and I crossed a line. I should have thought of something else to snap you out of it.” A few more moments go by in awkward silence, Lux still not saying anything, just continuing to stare at Camilla in shock. “Right. I suppose I’ll leave you be, then.” Camilla takes another step back and turns towards the door.
“Wait!” they call, finally snapping out of their trance. They quickly step forward and grab Camilla’s wrist. “Stay, please…”
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Hello!
Here is this week’s blog post!
I knew I wanted to have their first kiss be with either Andrew, Camilla, or Aurora, their future partners, but I wasn’t sure which. With each one, it would happen in different ways. I couldn’t decide which one to write so I asked my roommate, who knows nothing about the characters, to choose. Obviously, she chose Camilla. I wasn’t sure how I wanted it to happen at first since Camilla is really reserved and neither of them are one to make a first move like that usually. After thinking about several different scenarios, I finally decided that this was the most plausible one for them.
Also, a little bit of context! Lux had unintentionally said something a little flirty to Aurora and then misunderstood her reaction as being uncomfortable and negative instead of flustered like she actually was.
Anyway! I hope you enjoyed! See you next week!
~Musette
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